Some day I hope you hurt as much as I do.........

...I feel a need to talk to you on a more personal level.....not that I could ever do it face to face with you......it just puts both of us in the most awkward situation possible....so I might as well vent out my frustrations in front of a machine that you so despise............all said and done here goes..
First of all.....I dont know what scares you about me......
I suffer in silence...wait....I dont suffer in silence,my family and frenz suffer in silence as I vent out my frustrations about you......you have no idea how much I can talk about you....
I dont know how you would ever know how much I like you....you think it's some kind of school girl crush,that's being taken to another level.....but it's not.....of all the men that I could ever be with,I choose to want to be with you......not that you give me a choice of being with you.....you give me didly squat!!....
I swallow by pride every single time and come back for more of something that isnt there.....I pray for a ray of light from you.....I dont get as much as a flicker from you.....does it frustrate me.....yes to a great extent....why u ask?......who am I to blame?.....noone but myself ......
But wait......one question mr.mophead.....why why why run away from something that you know I'll never ask for.....there's never gonna be a 'what next' where you and I are concerned.....(pls note the usage of you and I as separate words....although I'd like to put it together....it's no use....there is no us....there's just you and I,sometimes I think it's not even appropriate in the same sentence!!!!)...
Anyways you wanna run....u can hide.....go ahead......coz if there's anyone whose ruining this non existant relationship that I was trying so hard to keep alive...it's you!.......u walk away...leaving me bitter cold within...