Some day I hope you hurt as much as I do.........

...I feel a need to talk to you on a more personal level.....not that I could ever do it face to face with you......it just puts both of us in the most awkward situation possible....so I might as well vent out my frustrations in front of a machine that you so despise............all said and done here goes..
First of all.....I dont know what scares you about me......
I suffer in silence...wait....I dont suffer in silence,my family and frenz suffer in silence as I vent out my frustrations about you......you have no idea how much I can talk about you....
I dont know how you would ever know how much I like you....you think it's some kind of school girl crush,that's being taken to another level.....but it's not.....of all the men that I could ever be with,I choose to want to be with you......not that you give me a choice of being with you.....you give me didly squat!!....
I swallow by pride every single time and come back for more of something that isnt there.....I pray for a ray of light from you.....I dont get as much as a flicker from you.....does it frustrate me.....yes to a great extent....why u ask?......who am I to blame?.....noone but myself ......
But wait......one question mr.mophead.....why why why run away from something that you know I'll never ask for.....there's never gonna be a 'what next' where you and I are concerned.....(pls note the usage of you and I as separate words....although I'd like to put it together....it's no use....there is no us....there's just you and I,sometimes I think it's not even appropriate in the same sentence!!!!)...
Anyways you wanna run....u can hide.....go ahead......coz if there's anyone whose ruining this non existant relationship that I was trying so hard to keep alive...it's you!.......u walk away...leaving me bitter cold within...

was out this diwali with the entire family.........

five star hotels dont serve the best thali food in the world....but sumhow my family doesnt seem to understand that or last nite they chose to ignore that fact.......anyways whoever said ignorance is bliss,wasnt footing the bill at a five star hotel......

plus they all wanted thali meals and they didnt even have thali out there...i liked the food anyways.....the older generation grumbled and cribbed and paid a huge amount for sumthing they didnt even like........infact someone in the family said.....this isnt even indian food......so much for trying to get thali meals at moksh......apparently expecting the impossible runs in the family......

last day of diwali......i spend time lighting diyas and like any other traditional indian girl i go out for coffee with a buncha frenz to coffeee day.....

what did i learn this diwali????
the wrong guy always seems to notice u and the right guy is always in another country,or he has a gf that he loves and sumtimes if ur lucky he's gay,atleast that way u know ur not competing with another girl....